If there's one thing I hate more than anything else, it's going for a
haircut. Whenever I do anything that belies an interest in my appearance
- go for a haircut, shop for new clothes - I feel like people are
looking at me and thinking, "Dude, why bother?" It's intensely humiliating.

I try to minimise the trauma: I go to a quiet backstreet barber's. And I
get there 15 minutes before they open to ensure I'm the first one in and
the first one out.

Then I'll have maybe 4 weeks of grace before my self-esteem starts to
suffer due to the length of my hair. Then I'll procrastinate for another
four weeks until I start to look so unkempt I really have no choice but
to take the plunge. What a horrible cycle.

The guys at work OTOH... They go to a trendy salon in town, get their
hair washed and pampered by the gorgeous young hairdressers and have
discussions about the next 'look' to try. They come back to the office
glowing.

Different fucking world to mine.

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According to a new study, it has been suggested that people
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Red light. Restart not fixing it. ? kaput. If so might not be posting
for few days. Using opera mini to send this.
Tim

I hate when they say Robbie Williams is a "famous depressive". The only
reason he ever got depressed was cos of the amount of Showbiz Cola going up
his snout, same with most "famous depressives" of today. He's just a
shameless self-publicist with no discernible talent from where I'm standing
and he cheapens it all for the rest of us proper depressives. Cunt.

I don't really know what to say. I just needed to say something
somewhere. I am feeling really bad. I have felt really bad today and
yesterday. It has all got really really bad again. I feel like my head
is exploding. My heart too. They are both going to explode. I really
want to die. I always want to die but I want it so much at the moment
it hurts. It all feels so impossible. I have taken a couple of
diazepam and some zopiclone so hopefully I will sleep soon, but I just
can't imagine being able to get through the next few days if things
like stay this. Everyone thinks I am doing better. My CPN and my GP
think I am doing better even though I try to tell them that I am not.
I wish I could explain it better. Everything is pounding and I feel so
bad it just hurts. And then if I die everyone will...