Nyob zoo txog cov SCH kwvtij, kwv npawg thiab nkauj muam,

Ua tsaug rau nej tej kev hlub txog kuv thiab concern txog kuv.

I have a bit of time off today... so let me lament with you for a
moment...

WARNING... only for those who are interested to read this boring
monologue about mself.
NB - For those who have no interest, just give this a flip! Don't
waste time here.

Yus yug los ua ib tug Hmoob ces yeej zoo lino. Peb cov Hmoob yeej yog
neeg siab nkaus, siab me... tsis xav kom lwm tus ua tau ib yam dabtsi
zoo tshaj yus... Peb Hmoob yog cov neeg khib-khib tas zog. Yus pom
luag ua tau tej yam tshaj yus me-ntsiv, tej yam zoo yog, lis txob ntoo
yuav txi txiv ces Hmoob yeej muab txiav cag kiag ntag li qhov tus SCH
members hau no, li nej pom tamsis no- tsis tuav npe los nej yeej paub.

Kuv nco ntsoov kuv txiv ntawm late Col Neej Tswb hais rau kuv, "Me
tub... koj yuav ua ib tus neeg phem ces, koj ib ntsais muag xwb ces
yeej ua tau lawm. Tabsis yog koj yuav ua kom tau ib tub neeg zoo mas
koj yuav tau siv tag koj ib siv neeg mog". Lino, nws nyob ntawm yus
tus kheej, yus yuav tau txiav txim siab saib yuav yuav ua neeg phem
los yus xav ua neeg zoo? Tej nyuag lus sib cav hauv SCH no xwb yog ua
zeb-ho rau peb tuaj ho riam xwb...yog peb ua siab ntev, ua siab loj,
yog peb muaj kev npau suav thiab lub hom-phiaj xav ua ib tug neeg zoo
tiag, yog yus muaj siab dawb-paug xav los pab peb kwvtij neejtsa, peb
yuav tau ntsia kom deb, take the next the next step, then next step...
ntsia-ntsoov yus lub hau-kev es keep going - take one step, then the
next and the next mus li... until the day yus us pa zaum kawg saib yus
tej kwvtij neejtsa, phoojywg thiab yeeb-ncuab yuav hais li as rau
yus! Thaum ntawv, pej kum tebchaws mam paub tias yus yog neeg phem
los yog neeg zoo.

Cov neeg ua nij hnub hais ub hais no rau kuv, txhiaj kuv cag sab xix,
sab laug, liam ub liam no, lawv yog cov neeg ua lawm cuab lawm ntxiab,
lawm muab luag khi lawv caj-dab xwb - a self reflection of WHO they
really are inside themselves. (Remember, as rule of thump, no one
rarely criticises some one below them! People only crticise or
pointing fingers to someone whos ia ABOVE them or better than them!
If any one of you are veing criticise for anything by any one, just
remember that).

SCH.... Members of SCH, also remember that SCH, if any one not realize
yet, SCH is just a mirror to reflect on ourselves... and it never
cease to amaze me how so many people come to SCH to flash their
stupidity, and flashing their true self before the entire Hmong
communities!!!

Also... remember that we are ho we are, no matter where we are or
what screen name we opted to use. Tej twg mas xav tias yus sij lub
screen name lawm ces yus yuav hais licas, yuav yuav cem leej twg, yus
yuav hais phem naum twg los yeej tau... tabsis, they never understand
that each and every time, they say or behave in any way in SCH with a
screen name or real name is infact inprint in their brain - every
time, there is an anatomical AND chemical change in their brain that
will last their life time... and in some case, they may even pass that
changes (as embedded in their DNA) to their children as well! Lino,
Hmoob thiab hais tias yuav tau saib cag-cev Hmoob no saib lawm niam
lawm txiv, lawv pog lawv yawg yog pab pawg neeg zoo licas los!!!

For example, how the mainstream Hmoob communities judge me today s not
only that I hav a title dr. Not at all. The Hmog communities see me as
he products of my parents, my grand parents and my great-grand
parents. When you meet any Hmong for the first time, the first
question they will ask you, "Koj yog pab twg, pawg twg nad?". Then I
woud reply, "Kuv yog Tasseng Faiv Ntaj Thoj..". Then the Hmong would
say,"Oh... kuv/peb paub koj kawg mad!!!", even they have never meet
me before. They have never kow me or meet me before but what they
mean is that they can judge what sort of person I am more likely to be
based on my family history!

SO.... the main points I want o make here is that:
1. We are ALWAYS who we really are, no matter where we are or what we
pretend to be.
2. SCH is just a mirror image for us to reflect the true self INSIDE
us.... so don't be fool that you can say nathing and you can get away
with it!
3. No one can make you a bad or good person unless you want to be (you
are always in control with one exception - it is hard, although not
impossible, to override your gene).

Hence, my final point is that I am NO perfect, I may be the worse
person to deal with, the most controversal Hmong, I have good and bad
trait, strong and weak points but it is ME who will decide my nex
step... Nej xav paub tias kuv ho muaj pes-tsawhg tus pojniam... Kuv
twb qhia rau sawvdaws tag tabsi sawdaws yeej tsis hnov, tsis pom
li!!! es niaj hnub no, tseem muaj qhov tug tseem niaj nub nug ntxiv
thiab. Kuv yuav muaj pes-tsawg tus niam los tsis tseem ceeb rau
sawvdaws vim tej no yog kuv lub private life nyob hauv kuv vaj kuv
tsev, tsis tau mus nphav txog leej twg vaj leej twg tsev. Kuv tsev
neeg yeej ua neej qhib qhov-rooj lug, this muaj thuv tsis muaj txiv,
nyob nrov ntwg lis xub ntab, vam ntwg li xwb mus - nrog pej kum
tebchaws ua neej kab siab lug. Kuv tej poj tej sev yog leej twg, zoo
licas, ho laus lo luag, dub los dawb, dig muag, los tes los taw licas
lo yeej muab duab (foto) thoob hauv internet. There is nothing to
hide - some people have eyes but no vision to see it - that's all.

Cov neeg ntseg nov qhov zoo, muag kaj, muag pom yeej paub yeej pom
txhij, pom txhua los tau ntau niaj ntau xyoo lawm. Ho cov neeg tseg
tsis hno, muag tsis pom es mloog kev taug xaiv, nyiam nrhiav kev
tshum xwb ces yeej tsis paub, tsis pom. More importantly, we ONLY see
or hear what we WANT to see or hear, even the fact is right in front
of him,he will NOT see it. Let me, give an example. Just 2 weeks
agao, I was talking to ib tug yawg Hmoob tim Nplog teb. Sib tham mus
los, nws cia li nug kuv tias, "Dr Pov, kuv hnov tiav koj yuav tau ib
tug niam yau mo-mo no es puas muaj tiag nad?". Kuv thiaj teb nws
tias, "Es ua cas koj ho nug li? koj tsis paub li lo?". Nws teb tias,
" Kuv yeej tsis paub lis, niam qhov hnov lawv cav-cav txog tsis ntev
los no xwb!". Kuv thiaj hais rau yawg tias, "Es thaum kuv los Veescam
xyoo 2006, koj twb huv kuv thiab kuv pojniam ub los nrog koj noj ib
pluag mo hau koj tsev ned!!". Vow... nws mas ceeb loj kawg!
Here is a song I recorded while I as in Vientiane - soon to be
released.... but for SCH members only.. don't distribute yet -
otherwise I can's sell my album!!)- The song is written by Mr Phouma
Phimmasone and the lao version will be out soon... to be sung be the
legendary Bouthieng manivong.
Here is the song in Hmong version (may take a bit long to load - but
it is really worth it):
http://www.lexicon.net/~lis01085/misc/txij-nkawm.m4a

One more thing... I am not here to compete with any one.. not here to
be any one's leader... I am not here to seek any one approval for any
thing. I am here to do what I can, to say what I believe, with what I
have and from i am as being my contribution as some one who is
happened to be born, not by choice but by destiny, as a Hmong. I have
never joioned any Hmong political movements although I know and be
friends with many who belong to many organisations. An as some of you
know, VP yog kuv neejtsa, txheeb ze heev thiab sib hlub kawg but it is
just that (more detail in my familuy hsitory in my family homepage).
And that I am fortunate enough to be who I am today. I can say that
tej sawvdaws hais rau kuv ntau-ntau los tau ob peb limpiam los no, i
have learn a lot, I have noted all, take some, flash some. I have and
I will defend myself - forcefully, only to win - when it is necessary
to do so (as in the case with Teev Lis)... other time, there is no
point to argue when there is nothing to be gained by winning. From
what has happened in recent days and weeks, and from all what others
have said about me, I will NOT be deterred that easily... it just give
me more publicity, more power - the things that I hate but by default,
it just happen that way.

Hope that this mini reflection give some glince on this Hmong guy who
may have been at the wrong time and born into the wrong race - who
knows... This guy come to this world with a PACKAGE, of all sort of
surprise, mostly bad things +++ ect.. You just cannot have it
perfect - just like the beautiful rose with an ugly, thorny tree!.
Tej zaum phem los nyaj tsis muaj tus phem tshaj kuv - at least I can
vouch for that fact.
Qhov zoo, nothing yet... NOTHING GOOD yet... there is still a life
time ahead of me to attempt to do good and that can only be judged
when, and ONLY WHEN some of you pass by my coffin.

Have any one of you ever thought, WHY you are born as a Hmong, in this
era? Why not born as an American, why not as a lao, an Aboriginal, a
kmu, a Thai ect..???

Pao
ps. I went to Aljazeera TV to talk about the Hmong in the jungle but I
was really disappointed becasue time did not permit me to say all the
major points that i have to say... really diaspointing...well... may
be next time... but when I come to think of it, it may be a destiny, a
blessng in disguise... yog kuv tseem hais tag tej kuv prepare mus hais
mas luag yeej yuav muaj kuv rau daim npe dub kiag ntag!. No doubt
about that. May be a sanitised Press Release later?. Any way, thanks
to all those people who have sent their input to me... all those info
will be used in due course.