Well I have seen a GP and he read the letter from my Psychiatrist in
Durban. Well he was quite happy to chnage me over to the more
expensive medications.

I was on Amitriptyline 150mg Night
Sulpiiride 100mg Morning 50mg Night. --> This shall be continued until
finished so I am told.
Diazepam 10mg per day.

Ok now the new stuff.

Risperdal/Respridone 2mg at night.
Wellbutrin/Bupropion 150mg slow realease mornings.
Escitalopram/Cipralex 20mg
Diazepam 10 mg per day. We will be doing a tapering session for this.
Which will only start as soon as I see a Psychiatrist.

So there you have it. I'm very impressed with the NHS here in Leigh-on-
Sea. I got to see a doctor the same day. Now thats an achievement when
I lived back in Ilford, Redbridge. I also had a swollen foot with a
rash which I seem to have got from the 24 hours of traveling. It's
cheaper if you have stop overs.

I'm off to Heathrow today. See you on the other side wish me a safe
journey. I leave South Africa today at 5pm.

Thank you everyone for all the support you have given me, over the
time I have been here. Let's hope I make it back in the UK.

Also for those of interest in such thing's codeine, alcohol and ciggie
free for 3 days now. Withdrawal from the codeine wasn't as bad as I
thought it was going to be.

I had a nasty cough about a week and a half ago. Got some CorBar
Linctus. Which contains 10mg Codeine for every 5ml and 20mg of
Ephedrine for every 5ml. One bottle is 200ml. Since the cough I'm on
two bottles a day.

Now we come to why! As most you know or those of you who have been
following my post's I'm coming home to the UK on the 9th of August.
Everytime I take the codeine the pain and sadness of leaving my wife
and daughter behind is easier to manage.

Tomorrow is my last working day, I shall need some to get through
that. Then I'm off work till the flight. Seeing as it's been such a
short time will the withdrawals be harsh. Is there anything to do to
help?

The last time I was addicted to codeine I found wine really helpful,
you know one of those 5 litre boxes of sweet red wine.

My question is this. I aim to quit after I have done my days work. How
bad can I expect things to feel.

Tickets paid for and flights booked. Leaving the 9th of August.
Arriving Sunday afternoon. With a stop off at Dubai.

What is important is that when I get to the UK they will continue
treatment. I know Doctors are very weary of prescribing Benzo's I'm on
Diazepam 10mg or more if needed I don't take it daily. However that
stuff hang's around in the system for ages. I have been on it for a
year and half.

The Doctors in the UK must understand they cannot simply stop
prescribing it as I will go into withdrawal which is immoral and
wrong. If they want me to stop taking I shall need to have a tapering
system in place. Any Doctor that is not willing to do that shall be
reported. You can't expect a sudden abrupt stop of Diazepam and think
that everything will be OK. So lets hope I get an understanding
Doctor. Also I can finally go onto a high dose of Respiridone 4-6mg.
Which is like R3000 here almost 250 pounds. I'll be able to get the
right dose on the NHS so I won't need the Diazepam any more. Although
the Diazepam needs to be tapered.

SSA's commitment to destroying lives

SSA's commitment to combating fraud and the Inspector General's expertise have
resulted in a very successful partnership venture. SSA and the IG have set up
investigative teams called Cooperative Disability Investigation Units (CDI)
consisting of an IG special agent, two investigators from a State or local law
enforcement agency and two DDS and/or SSA personnel. The purpose of this
initiative is make disabled people homeless and maybe catch a few of the rare
frauds.

wellbutrin made me very very very ver depreesed then i GOT OFF IT AND felt
better.

On Mon, 10 Dec 2007 21:52:01 -0800 (PST), in alt.support.schizoaffective ChrisC
googlemail.com> wrote:

Is it right to shut out the voices with medication if they are benign?
Somehow I don't think so. My voices work for my mutual advancement and
beneficial acceleration into a better understanding of the world
around me.

Or is this delusional?

I'm definitely coming home to the UK. I have just resigned, I have to
work my notice. My wife does not want to go to a support group.
However this is not permanent. This is a trial separation. Go to the
UK for at least 6 months to a year. Find out where my heart lies.

On a mental note. I feel strangely liberated.

Also me and my wife are still in love. I just need some cave time by
the looks of it to sort my head out. Work out where I should be. Do I
want and can I care for a family. It's been a very emotional decision
to make for both me and her.

1: Me and my wife have discovered that we no longer have anything in
common.
2: I can't promise her the support that she wants out of me, due to
not knowing who I am from one day to the next. For example being happy
and optimistic one day and pessimistic another day.
3: I can't take this mental problem of mine, it really gets in the way
of everything. Work, relationship. Due to being on ant-psychotics and
anti-depressants, I feel like as one person said on here, like I'm
watching a TV and I'm not part of the drama.
4: I can't take the decision as to if I should return to the UK or
stay for the kids. There is benefit to both choices. Maybe in the UK
I'll get the care I need. Where as here nobody understands me or my
condition.

The bottom line is, I CAN'T MAKE A JUSTIFIED DECISION ONE WAY OR
ANOTHER!

Can I be so bold as have some of you in my position, and make that
decision for me?

Ignore the above if you think it's too intense a request. Maybe you
views would be better.

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