sorry for starting yet another post

my old dog died at the end of august. I'd had him for 14 years. maybe it
sounds stupid but he taught me about love. that might not be right, he
taught me about affection. probably a big part of how I ended up at this
group is because of losing him. little girl wasn't ok with losing him.
little girl had found something that made her feel loved and safe and then
it was gone. I don't know how to make it ok for little girl.

one of my cats died this year too. somehow with the stupid holidays it's
hitting me really hard that they are gone.

and my puppy is wonderful. he really is, but he's just a young guy and
somehow there's this void that my dog has left and I really really need to
stop crying. it used to be when I'd get like this I could go and bury my
face in his fur.

little girl wants him back and of course that's not possible and i don't
know how to make her feel safe and loved. I didn't even know we needed that.

Spoiler: Religion, Spirituality, Season is upon us.

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The Lord moves in mysterious ways

95%% of humanity are believers. 62%% are Christian, and so 9.5 out
of 10 people will relate to this post. Many Christians think of the Holy
Spirit as Divinity, but the bible says otherwise, portrays them more
like spirit guides/guardians/servants/angels. Some of are vain, bad
natured, fallen.

Ravensong aol.com> writes:

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slunky globalzero.org> wrote:

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Hi!

Somehow we're feeling somehow like sh*t and dunno how to deal with it.
Triggered? Dunno exactly, could be.

Spoilered for slight references to sxlity, ab*se, sa and so on...
Some reference to ra, too.

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the tpist had previously drawn a cave for the little one. she had
given it to us at the end of that session. we had folded it and put it
on the desk, where it had subsequently gotten buried.

clearing piles on the desk today, came upon a folded paper. opened it
to see what it was. the little one was suddenly triggered to be very
close to out. not sure if she was actually out, but maybe because c
said he thought someone else had been there. quickly folded and put
the paper under a pile, but took a while to get oriented and even
longer not to be panicked (is still somewhat there in the background).

couldn't throw it away. couldn't keep it because too unsafe for little
one to be out because she's so completely disoriented and so completely
panicked. put it in an envelope with note for tpist asking her to keep
it. going to mail it to her.

(things like this make it hard to deny things happened)

-- astri