Hello everybody...

Well needless to say I have not socialized in almost a decade,I had
been suffering from sever bouts of depression and childhood trauma
that has taken me a while to heal from

I currently on disability with my folks, have no friends and my last
relationship of any length was almost a decade ago (2 years,
34 year old woman). In my time away from the world I have learned a
hell of a lot and pursued my intellectual interests.

Now I have aspergers syndrome (diagnosed @ 20 roughly)
and this means that I cannot (easily) predict how what I will say
will effect someone. I also cannot do any behaviour prediction and
"get into other peoples heads" unless it is at the extremes, (i.e.
being mean, cursing, etc) and it also makes it somewhat difficult to
read body language. (although I did the newbie mission "say hi to
50 people" and I picked up on it at the local mall).

I've gotten down that I need to not run from expressing myself
(i.e. be comfortable in my own skin and project good feelings
since feelings "leak" and your body is always transmitting your
internal state and can be read by others).

SuicideKing gmail.com> writes:

Greetings.

Where did you get your nick name from?

Not a problem, lets move forward, shall we?

Some men come from lower places in the game, don't worry.

On Sep 28, 3:29 am, SuicideKing gmail.com>
wrote:

Are you on meds? If so, what ones?

and childhood trauma

Something you saw or did to someone else, or something that was done
to you?

Are you self-medicating and/or not following prescribed treatments, if
any?

On Sep 28, 7:48 am, "fakeob...@gmail.com" gmail.com> wrote:

With the exception of the above sentence, your post was informative,
empthatic and full of useful advice.

Are you feeling ok?

On Sep 28, 11:14 am, Alex gmail.com> wrote:

It's always informative to find out how many men interested in this
stuff find the female body disgusting. This isn't the first post of
this sort that I've seen. I wonder what that means.

On Fri, 28 Sep 2007 11:01:05 GMT, TagoMago
RossJeffriesSpeedSeduction.com> wrote:

(a video game, but it's fitting for where I've been)

It's actually a combination of Suicide (something I've lived with)
and an old nickname I used when I played online.

There is also a squad called the 242nd SuicideKings in Freespace
2, and just by coincidence, lol, so I figure it's a damn good nickname
considering what I've been through. I've been suicidal most of my
life (since 10-11 ish) and have made some pretty big discoveries in
terms of how guys can get so bad.

On Fri, 28 Sep 2007 04:48:18 -0700, "fakeobama@gmail.com"
gmail.com> wrote:

No meds for me, they state of the science is barbaric, it's just
a way for drug companies to make money.

Stuff that was done to me.

On Sep 28, 8:14 am, Alex gmail.com> wrote:

LAWLZ! I thought that was my most concrete and helpful suggestion.

FO

On Sep 28, 11:43 am, SuicideKing gmail.com>
wrote:

If you really believe this how about not charging me for your content?
I have AS, and will keep a record of my progress on youtube / blog for
yourself... I am mature and a lot of AS guys because of how they
were born, have a lot of difficulty beign socialized...

So are you up for it? If you genuinely feel for these guys then
do something for at least one of them.. Myself.

I'm interested in helping these guys because I know exactly
why the Virginia tech massacre occured, and it's sad that
Mr. Cho couldn't get established socially and resorted to violence.

Remove the _nospam_ from my email if you're serious.