Hey Guys,

I was here all the time when I first got divorced a few months ago.
Got too caught up in going out to meet girls every weekend, work
suffered, everything suffered. Crashed big-time. Got depressed,
finally had to go through what is called the "grieving-period" that I'd
apparently been "postponing" - yada-yada-yada.

Anyway, a number close (out of town girl) from 2 months ago came to
stay with me last weekend. She is 23 years old, probably an "8," very
sexy. Finally lost my "the last woman I had sex with was my
ex-wife"-cherry. A 23-year-old-girl feels like heaven. Like homemade
ice cream, new car smell, and every Girls Gone Wild video you've ever
seen ads for.

I had been up all night directing a music video the night before I met
her and almost didn't go out because of it - and now I'm so glad that I
was crazier and girl-crazy back then otherwise last weekend would not
have happened. During my depression, I came close numerous times to
calling it off but my best-friend kept stopping me.

Regardless, just wanted to let you know that I only ran game that first
night. Did the cube, she was elated just when I initially brought it
up. But we've talked and emailed alot since then. Enough comfort was
built for a young girl to fly into town and spend a weekend with a
35-year-old-guy she met in a bar once.

There's something to be said about being yourself and having that work
on its own. 2 months ago I was Neg-Crazy. When it worked, it worked.
When it didn't - it was ugly!

That being said, I'm ready to get back into this thing under much
calmer circumstances. No matter what Mystery says (I've got all 5 DVDs
and the VAH) ther'es no fucking way I'm going to go out 4 nights a week
to practice sarging. Nobody should be doing that. 4 nights a week
should be spent trying to build something more positive, long lasting -
like working on that book you always wanted to write or taking a class,
or finding whatever you're passionate about - not sarging. Anybody
remember that chapter in The Game when Neil Strauss realized that
they'd all become losers who could get chicks, but losers nonetheless.
We're all going to be 65 one day. Let's all have fun with these girls,
but remember that we need to have something going on outside of this
shit.

End of Rant. I'm ready to get back into this and start dating some
hotties again. Any experienced PUAs in LA looking for a wing on Friday
or Saturday nights? I've done alot of reading and put some solid
sarging time in, but I still long to see a Master-In-Action.