A few notes on my observations about the charity of
'the organisation'

After 12 years of struggling and discrimination and
living with little or no financial and less emotional support
from family and so called firends...the time has come when
I have to tell my children the way things are.

If they decide that abortion is preferable to seeing their
kids have the sort of a life like we have had, and the hardship
we have suffered (although I celebrate that my children are safe,
togather and we have some kind of roof over our heads!)
they have never seen a guy invite me out or see me dress for
a date, a family celebration or social ocassion. The have gone
without holidays (the travel expenses are very high) and although
I lavish them with treat when I can afford them....they know they
cant have everything they see.

My daughter already knows that her mother wasnt good enough
to date or marry her father (although I have always been too
embararred
and shy to let her know that...they both know that they're adored and
were always wanted and the joy they brought into our life)

I really need to tell her about love and money..and that under no
circumstances should she date without knowing that her male
partners pay for her. Its very difficult to have to tell her this, but
I know she will understand because although both both the
childrens fathers have found work, and bought homes for themselves
have holidays, frequent social excursions with their friends...daddies
financial assistance has been voluntary or not ever (I tried to do as
the law encouraged..to be easy going and settle differences and sort
out
business, always putting the children first, and never cause
additional
upset!) Its particularly difficult for women due to the Western
tradition
that women learn skills so the couple canwork as a team to bring a
family up together. (its all hokum! there seems more money in strip
and porn, and the amazing choice of whatever guys would make suitable
husbands! ... ditch the books girls! its a waste of time if you havnt
married
started family early, or have an enormous network of suitors and open
arms of a family willing to support you and your offspring at every
turn!)

As for 'charity' there isnt! the welfare state system is full of
people who
who have to nurse and care for elderly and sick, children and poor,
quite 'voluntarily' and without any mention or demad for charitable
status
as they believe and have faith that what they do is for love and
because
they truely care about someone.

Charities, I believe such as the elusive 'Masonic' networks are poor
examples of human charity, however they are excellent examples
of laundering cash and services. They DO NOT have any discipline
regards the welfare and care of single moms with children who are
destitute, himeless or lost their partners, family, or possibly
widowed.
They do however have a terrific circulation and do remarkabl and very
trendy work for the poor...and send their (our) money and care to
hospitals
abroad and support smaller organisations....(but NEVER single moms
with children who are alone without partners) to repeat they are in
no way influenced or under any obligation, theoretically or otherwise
to support women with childrem.

They do however do tremendous work for brothels.

As you are aware...I was arrested and beaten up having fallen pregnant
...and then taken into an office and accused of kissing someone.
I still have no idea as to why...but I can only surmize that it was
because,

I NEVER ASK FOR MONEY....only to love and be loved in return.
If charging for sex was my only option.....I have had to do without
love. I am still alone, I'm sure like many sing;le women, because
we are much too afraid of the physical abuse, and disgrace of natural
courtships and conceptions.