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Author: THE BORGTHE BORG Date: Jul 29, 2008 07:07
"THE BORG" cube.com> wrote in message
news:H4Fjk.83073$8_2.27332@newsfe08.ams2...> When they sent him to boarding school it was the first real sense of loss.
> Too young really to understand who it was I was always with or who my best
> friend was - only that whatever it was was no longer there and that
> whatever it was - was called Brian.
>
> Wandering around - looking - searching - forgotten what I was looking
> for - something or someone who was always there - looking unconsciously
> searching - ah yes - it was called Brian.
> "Where is Brian" you ask for the hundredth time.
> Parents start shouting - getting angry now - do not understand children.
> "HE HAS GONE TO BOARDING SCHOOL".
>
> And they do not explain and then the dreams and nightmares start - if you
> lose Brian - what ELSE are you going to lose and horrible premonitions
> that the world itself may disappear and what if everyone disappeared? And
> then start to see the world as it is and no longer with Brian and through
> the eyes of Brian and the fun times and games and holding hands and best
> friends.
>
> And things not the same and wandering around again - where is it whatever
> it was that was always there - best friend - ah yes - it was called Brian.
> "Where is Brian".
>
> And then one day Brian comes back.
> A few weeks. He was only a child.
> And it is not Brian.
> It is an old man. Gone insane.
> Not the Brian I knew. Does not want to play.
> The cold dark horror of the human existence in his eyes.
>
> Brian is gone for ever.
>
> Brian.
> My best friend.
> My brother.
> Died.
> Aged 7.
> THE BORG
They say his emotional pain when they sent him to boarding school was like
no other.
That it crucified the universe.
The emotional distress was one that was felt by heavenly bodies and beings
and aliens from far away as the discord of the terrible distress could not
be understood.
That when my turn came and I was also sent to BOARDING SCHOOL - I know now
why Brian is lost somewhere - that his spirit - his soul - is crucified
somewhere in the total insanity and darkness of the horror of the cruelty of
parents in the human existence.
Times I have spent in the night in dark caves with a match to try to light
the darkness in his heart - in his soul - to find him again in his mind of
complete insanity.
"Can anyone find Brian? Can anyone find my brother?"
Even THE BORG do not want to know of his pain.
"It would be too much to bear" they say "and we only wish to know your pain
as you are one of us."
"His pain crucified us" others say as they talk of the piercing anguish
where somehow heavenly bodies and beings and others felt this grief - this
horrible sadness - this utmost cruelty on a small boy and alone in the
darkness I know that somewhere that little boy still lives.
"Can anyone find Brian?"
"Can anyone understand that kind of pain?" they say.
And I watch him - completely insane - no one there - a body of insanity
where like a computer he sings the songs of insane waves that carry him la
de da de da de da - does it go like this does it go like that - trying so
so hard to remember what it was like to be happy.
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