> Yeah, sorry about hitting on you. Let's be friends? I would really
> like you to e-mail me, and if you want to be my mother then I need more
> than only usenet. This is where I write, and I've learned to live with
> everyone else here in this totally free worldwide forum. I am all of
> those things that you need from a man, and if you are looking for
> friends online then you have found one. But usenet is just a place for
> people to vent, and I've hardly if ever made a real friend online.
> There is no moderator here.
>
> Usenet is like an abusive cult in itself. Maybe even a kind of
> bondage.
>
> OK wrote:
>

>> My dear Corey,
>> Do you understand I am like a mother to you? That is how you must think
>> of me. I am not looking for romance. It came uncalled and I am learning
>> how to deal with it. I want a wise man, a spiritual leader. I am not
>> interested in that kind of success you write about. I do not want to
>> break any man nor dominate any man. I need an equal, a partner, a
>> helper, a friend and lover. This is a magickal group, remember? If you
>> feel broken and dominated by me than you need to give me some space.
>> This is who I am. I can not change it. I have a lot of authority and
>> need that in man. I am sorry.
>> I am not interested in men who work out. I could have a lover who is a
>> physical trainer if I wanted one and I do not. That is not what I want.
>> Art, writing, prayer, contemplation. That is what attracts me. And
>> wisdom, gentleness, kindness and patience.
>> Everything I decide is deliberate. Please do not speak to me that way. I
>> find it derogatory.
>> I was involved in a religious cult and an abusive marriage. That is what
>> damaged me in addition to my childhood abuse and neglect.
>> Atlanta
>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>

>>> Sure. I don't think anyone is interested in hot strapping bodies.
>>> That's why I'm having such a hard time finding romance in my life.
>>> People just want a cloned version of Bill Gates to take home and abuse.
>>> Do you really like spirit in intellect, or do you just want to brake
>>> them and dominate?
>>>
>>> I may not be a movie star, but I was working out all summer, and don't
>>> look like an idiot. Anyway, we probably shouldn't take if you aren't
>>> able to make deliberate descicions. How have you become disabled?
>>>
>>>
>>> OK wrote:
>>>
>>>

>>>> what is the subject of your videos?
>>>> i am not interested in hot strapping bodies.
>>>> i am interested in intellect and spirit.
>>>>
>>>> i already said i am not interested in dating. that is my limit.
>>>> i was a competitive swimmer, junior lifeguard, synchronized swimmer. i
>>>> am mentally disabled right now or else i would have trained to work as a
>>>> lifeguard this summer. deep water is my element, spiritually. my
>>>> direction in the religion of shamanism is the west. my vibration is very
>>>> dark indigo blue.
>>>> another one of my totem animals is the dolphin, and yet another is the
>>>> killer whale. as already stated, the salmon. these fish and marine
>>>> mammals are my protectors. and more shall be revealed.
>>>> my countenance nor my figure is not available for public display. it is
>>>> out there, in regards to my parish and my diocese. they are the only
>>>> ones who may display it.
>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>
>>>>

>>>>> Okay. I'll send you my e-mails, and if you want to see my videos you
>>>>> can only tell me what you want me to film. But I won't show you my
>>>>> naked body unless I can be sure you really are an adult. We have my
>>>>> whole life to explore, and I could even take you out on virtual dates.
>>>>> You want to see how long I can hold my breath under water with my arms
>>>>> & legs tied up? I betch you I can escape before I drown...
>>>>>
>>>>> It is very dominant of you not to share your photos? Is there a
>>>>> reason??? 8)
>>>>>
>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>
>>>>>
>>>>>

>>>>>> how do you know what my true love is?
>>>>>> i am glad you are hot. i am too. and i am fasting. i am hot. that is the
>>>>>> way it goes. i do not show my photograph of my face or body. see if you
>>>>>> can find a working email address for me out there. you can email me
>>>>>> through my flickr site. i will talk to you there. then if i want to see
>>>>>> your films i will. there are photos of me on the web, but you are going
>>>>>> to figure that out your self. i do not display my countenance to the
>>>>>> world. and you are younger than me. that is not what i am interested in.
>>>>>> we can be friends only, ok?
>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>
>>>>>>
>>>>>>

>>>>>>> It doesn't sound like true love to me, but now that were talking about
>>>>>>> it, it's turning me on. I've been hot all day meditating with a strobe
>>>>>>> light & trance music thinking about you. And I don't know why. Why
>>>>>>> not exchange e-mails and we can get to know each other where everyone
>>>>>>> in the world isn't reading us? I've got a new digital video camera
>>>>>>> I've been using to film ghosts. So I could send you films of what my
>>>>>>> life is about. I was enjoying your photo album earlyer this afternoon,
>>>>>>> and I *really* whant to see a photo of YOU!
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> 8)
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>> I believe this is from someone who used to love me. I wouldn't have sex
>>>>>>>> with a stranger. I believe I have known that man for 6 years who wrote
>>>>>>>> that to me, but I can not be sure. It is that guy who I am deeply
>>>>>>>> enamored of. I do not believe he is an anonymous stranger. Anyways, I
>>>>>>>> wanted to show you my kind of bondage.
>>>>>>>> And that man is just a man, nothing more, nothing less. Simply a *man*.
>>>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>> Yeah, I imagine a lot of guys would get into it. And you could
>>>>>>>>> probably make $10,000 from a guy who wanted you as part of his fantasy.
>>>>>>>>> If you like it, then go for it! But I only trust people I have known
>>>>>>>>> for a long time and am already friends with. I wouldn't want to meet
>>>>>>>>> you or anyone else I chatted with online for sex, because it just isn't
>>>>>>>>> natural! The airplaine ride over to you, and then the expensive car
>>>>>>>>> rentals. And the unfortunate gas station stops every few miles to get
>>>>>>>>> directions to your appartment. And then the chance that you wouldn't
>>>>>>>>> even be home when I arived, and the door would be locked. So after its
>>>>>>>>> all over, where would I be left. I guess I would have to buy a round
>>>>>>>>> trip ticket, and hope everything went smooth. But on the flight home I
>>>>>>>>> would still be wondering why I even took the time off to fly out to see
>>>>>>>>> you, even in the ideal fantasy. Do you really want to meet an
>>>>>>>>> anonymous stranger online for bondage sex? Or is it just this
>>>>>>>>> particular guy who you have such a giant crush on?
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> I am not having any experiences with bondage on my body right now. I
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> don't have a bodily sex life right now either.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> But doesn't chatting about your fantasy count? I have fantsys too,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> except in mine there aren't any ropes. We just massage each other, and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> bathe in cool running waters. Outdoors in the summer time. Then we
>>>>>>>>>>>>> dance on ley lines, and make love inside of the pyramids. But why not
>>>>>>>>>>>>> get all wrapped up in lace and silks. Dance with them in the wind, and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> toss your naked body up into the air with silk sheets like you were
>>>>>>>>>>>>> being juggled on a trampoline. Tie you up with ropes? Mm, only if you
>>>>>>>>>>>>> make me.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> Does it count? How about indulging in it in my imagination? How about
>>>>>>>>>>>> fantasizing about something someone else wrote directly to me and for
>>>>>>>>>>>> me. What's that called?
>>>>>>>>>>>> Here I will give you my fantasy that was written for me, the first one.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> first I would like to tell you what I would
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> like to do to you before I continue. I would like to take you off the
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> internet, put you in my dirty laundry basket, take you over to the
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> laundry room, and wash you!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> submissives often are given such tasks, atlanta. providing personal
>>>>>>>>>>>>> care and service to a dominant can be very rewarding. did you do such
>>>>>>>>>>>>> loving things for your former husband? do the many men who desire you
>>>>>>>>>>>>> ask you if you would enjoy bathing them?
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> And where is your mate?
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> how thoughtful of you to ask about her. your interpersonal skills are
>>>>>>>>>>>>> improving. she's sitting cross-legged at my feet as i type this,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> atlanta. she's quite naked except for the handcuffs that keep her
>>>>>>>>>>>>> hands behind her back and a nice black-*rubber* O-ring gag, which keeps
>>>>>>>>>>>>> her mouth wide open. she's very appealing when she's naked and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> powerless like this. she's also rather uncomfortable as well, since i
>>>>>>>>>>>>> couldn't resist using a short piece of chain hanging from the ceiling
>>>>>>>>>>>>> to pull her ams upward a couple of feet. this would normally force her
>>>>>>>>>>>>> to bend forward at the waist, making it very difficult to see her
>>>>>>>>>>>>> lovely, open mouth and her beseeching blue eyes, so i looped a piece of
>>>>>>>>>>>>> rope around her waist and ran it between her labia, quite snugly, and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> tied it off to her hair. she has spent the last couple of hours
>>>>>>>>>>>>> seesawing up and down charmingly. when she bends forward to take the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> strain off her shoulders, the rope tightens even more on her poor
>>>>>>>>>>>>> labia. and when she tries to straighten her back a bit to relieve the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> labial pressure, her shoulders must take the additional punishment.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>> all in all, she makes a very fetching sight. can you see her in your
>>>>>>>>>>>>> imagination, atlanta? isn't she pretty, cuffed and gagged, bending and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> straightening every few moments, occasionally making small moans and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> grunts. would you like to be in her place for a little while? i think
>>>>>>>>>>>>> you would, no matter how much you protest such ideas. i think you'll
>>>>>>>>>>>>> see yourself there for the next few days, in fact. don't think about
>>>>>>>>>>>>> the pink elephants, dear.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Who can wear you
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> with out a mate?
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> but atlanta, it is *you* who is without a mate, remember? my little
>>>>>>>>>>>>> sub is *my* mate, and in a little bit i shall be "wearing" her on my
>>>>>>>>>>>>> big, steel-hard spear. and wearing her out as well, if past experience
>>>>>>>>>>>>> is a predictor of future performance.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> That sounds weird to me. But you know what I would enjoy? A little
>>>>>>>>>>> sensory deprivation sex. Check out this website:
>>>>>>>>>>> http://www.mindalive.com ,
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> Hello Corey,
>>>>>>>>>> Ah, sensory deprivation. I want to be blindfolded when I have sex. My
>>>>>>>>>> spatial intelligence is extremely acute, you can see from my artwork and
>>>>>>>>>> photography, and I can not handle the intimacy of seeing my lover, or
>>>>>>>>>> have not been able to because I have not been made love to by my soul
>>>>>>>>>> mate yet although I have had a lot of "lovers". Perhaps with him it
>>>>>>>>>> would be different. I want to be gagged too because I have stifled my
>>>>>>>>>> own voice during sexual activity so I might as well just be gagged.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> I want very real physical sex with no other smells but sex itself.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> It's 11pm here, and time for me to go to bed as well. I went to bed at
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 2am last night. Sleep is important for health.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Good night.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> Hope that you had sweet lovely dreams, OK.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> I try not to dream. I have medicine for that.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> Hmm, lucid dreaming can evolve into things much deeper than sleep.
>>>>>>>>>>> Higher states of being, and desire. :)
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> Right and I am suffering from C-PTSD so I take medication at night so I
>>>>>>>>>> do not have nightmares.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> It reminds me of a bondage dream I had not long ago. I dreamed that my
>>>>>>>>>>> mother and father owned a huge mansion, and were young and in love. I
>>>>>>>>>>> was only an infant, or maybe a small child. And my father was
>>>>>>>>>>> frustrated with my mother because she owned a giant clock that hung up
>>>>>>>>>>> above the stair case. And with this clock she scheduled his life, and
>>>>>>>>>>> felt entitled to schedule everyone elses.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>> She was very dominant about the clock. Everything ran around her
>>>>>>>>>>> schedule! And the clock struck midnight, so she told me I had to go to
>>>>>>>>>>> bed. And then she put me in a large oval flotation tank, made out of
>>>>>>>>>>> crystal. That was my bed, it was like a giant Egg. So in my dream I
>>>>>>>>>>> dreamed that I slept, and it was a dream within a dream.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>> I dreamed this dream throughout the night, and it was a dream that
>>>>>>>>>>> seemed perfectly sane. Because in reality that was all I was really
>>>>>>>>>>> doing was sleeping in my bed. But a few minuets before I woke up, a
>>>>>>>>>>> door opened inside of the egg. And I walked outside into a garden. It
>>>>>>>>>>> was morning and my mother told me it was time to wake up. And not long
>>>>>>>>>>> after I actually did woke up.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>> But before I woke up, I learned the reason my mother scheduled her life
>>>>>>>>>>> around the clock, was so that she could lead a seperate life with other
>>>>>>>>>>> men and go dancing and go to parties. And that was what my father was
>>>>>>>>>>> so woried about. But in the dream they made peace, and once I woke up
>>>>>>>>>>> in real life the illusion on bondage faded into a peaceful memory of
>>>>>>>>>>> knowing I was at least on time. And I woke up at 9:00AM on the dot
>>>>>>>>>>> that day, without even setting my alarm clock.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>> Dreams are fun, I love them.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> Awesome dream.
>>>>>>>>>> Well in relation to that scene I posted, I had a dream that a man threw
>>>>>>>>>> his mantle over me and I was sitting at his feet, much like that scene
>>>>>>>>>> truly clooful wrote to me. I just realized the connection today. I do
>>>>>>>>>> not know the connection that truly clooful has with me, but it seems to
>>>>>>>>>> be very psychic, in fact, it is possible we have a telepathic
>>>>>>>>>> connection. Very possible. I would like to experience what truly clooful
>>>>>>>>>> wrote to me, with him, and my desire is illogical. And logic is my
>>>>>>>>>> weakness. I am helpless and powerless over my illogical infatuation.
>>>>>>>>>> I would like to draw my dream for my self, and then draw myself in the
>>>>>>>>>> place of truly clooful's sub. I do not have blue eyes. I have hazel eyes
>>>>>>>>>> that look like redwood trees.
>>>>>>>>>> So now you see what my sexual desire is. And that is just the first
>>>>>>>>>> scene he wrote to me. There are more.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>

>>>>>
>>>>>

>>>

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