> My dear Corey,
> Do you understand I am like a mother to you? That is how you must think
> of me. I am not looking for romance. It came uncalled and I am learning
> how to deal with it. I want a wise man, a spiritual leader. I am not
> interested in that kind of success you write about. I do not want to
> break any man nor dominate any man. I need an equal, a partner, a
> helper, a friend and lover. This is a magickal group, remember? If you
> feel broken and dominated by me than you need to give me some space.
> This is who I am. I can not change it. I have a lot of authority and
> need that in man. I am sorry.
> I am not interested in men who work out. I could have a lover who is a
> physical trainer if I wanted one and I do not. That is not what I want.
> Art, writing, prayer, contemplation. That is what attracts me. And
> wisdom, gentleness, kindness and patience.
> Everything I decide is deliberate. Please do not speak to me that way. I
> find it derogatory.
> I was involved in a religious cult and an abusive marriage. That is what
> damaged me in addition to my childhood abuse and neglect.
> Atlanta
> CoreyWhite wrote:

>> Sure. I don't think anyone is interested in hot strapping bodies.
>> That's why I'm having such a hard time finding romance in my life.
>> People just want a cloned version of Bill Gates to take home and abuse.
>> Do you really like spirit in intellect, or do you just want to brake
>> them and dominate?
>>
>> I may not be a movie star, but I was working out all summer, and don't
>> look like an idiot. Anyway, we probably shouldn't take if you aren't
>> able to make deliberate descicions. How have you become disabled?
>>
>>
>> OK wrote:
>>

>>> what is the subject of your videos?
>>> i am not interested in hot strapping bodies.
>>> i am interested in intellect and spirit.
>>>
>>> i already said i am not interested in dating. that is my limit.
>>> i was a competitive swimmer, junior lifeguard, synchronized swimmer. i
>>> am mentally disabled right now or else i would have trained to work as a
>>> lifeguard this summer. deep water is my element, spiritually. my
>>> direction in the religion of shamanism is the west. my vibration is very
>>> dark indigo blue.
>>> another one of my totem animals is the dolphin, and yet another is the
>>> killer whale. as already stated, the salmon. these fish and marine
>>> mammals are my protectors. and more shall be revealed.
>>> my countenance nor my figure is not available for public display. it is
>>> out there, in regards to my parish and my diocese. they are the only
>>> ones who may display it.
>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>

>>>> Okay. I'll send you my e-mails, and if you want to see my videos you
>>>> can only tell me what you want me to film. But I won't show you my
>>>> naked body unless I can be sure you really are an adult. We have my
>>>> whole life to explore, and I could even take you out on virtual dates.
>>>> You want to see how long I can hold my breath under water with my arms
>>>> & legs tied up? I betch you I can escape before I drown...
>>>>
>>>> It is very dominant of you not to share your photos? Is there a
>>>> reason??? 8)
>>>>
>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>
>>>>

>>>>> how do you know what my true love is?
>>>>> i am glad you are hot. i am too. and i am fasting. i am hot. that is the
>>>>> way it goes. i do not show my photograph of my face or body. see if you
>>>>> can find a working email address for me out there. you can email me
>>>>> through my flickr site. i will talk to you there. then if i want to see
>>>>> your films i will. there are photos of me on the web, but you are going
>>>>> to figure that out your self. i do not display my countenance to the
>>>>> world. and you are younger than me. that is not what i am interested in.
>>>>> we can be friends only, ok?
>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>
>>>>>

>>>>>> It doesn't sound like true love to me, but now that were talking about
>>>>>> it, it's turning me on. I've been hot all day meditating with a strobe
>>>>>> light & trance music thinking about you. And I don't know why. Why
>>>>>> not exchange e-mails and we can get to know each other where everyone
>>>>>> in the world isn't reading us? I've got a new digital video camera
>>>>>> I've been using to film ghosts. So I could send you films of what my
>>>>>> life is about. I was enjoying your photo album earlyer this afternoon,
>>>>>> and I *really* whant to see a photo of YOU!
>>>>>>
>>>>>> 8)
>>>>>>
>>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>>
>>>>>>
>>>>>>

>>>>>>> I believe this is from someone who used to love me. I wouldn't have sex
>>>>>>> with a stranger. I believe I have known that man for 6 years who wrote
>>>>>>> that to me, but I can not be sure. It is that guy who I am deeply
>>>>>>> enamored of. I do not believe he is an anonymous stranger. Anyways, I
>>>>>>> wanted to show you my kind of bondage.
>>>>>>> And that man is just a man, nothing more, nothing less. Simply a *man*.
>>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>> Yeah, I imagine a lot of guys would get into it. And you could
>>>>>>>> probably make $10,000 from a guy who wanted you as part of his fantasy.
>>>>>>>> If you like it, then go for it! But I only trust people I have known
>>>>>>>> for a long time and am already friends with. I wouldn't want to meet
>>>>>>>> you or anyone else I chatted with online for sex, because it just isn't
>>>>>>>> natural! The airplaine ride over to you, and then the expensive car
>>>>>>>> rentals. And the unfortunate gas station stops every few miles to get
>>>>>>>> directions to your appartment. And then the chance that you wouldn't
>>>>>>>> even be home when I arived, and the door would be locked. So after its
>>>>>>>> all over, where would I be left. I guess I would have to buy a round
>>>>>>>> trip ticket, and hope everything went smooth. But on the flight home I
>>>>>>>> would still be wondering why I even took the time off to fly out to see
>>>>>>>> you, even in the ideal fantasy. Do you really want to meet an
>>>>>>>> anonymous stranger online for bondage sex? Or is it just this
>>>>>>>> particular guy who you have such a giant crush on?
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> OK wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> CoreyWhite wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> I am not having any experiences with bondage on my body right now. I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> don't have a bodily sex life right now either.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> But doesn't chatting about your fantasy count? I have fantsys too,
>>>>>>>>>>>> except in mine there aren't any ropes. We just massage each other, and
>>>>>>>>>>>> bathe in cool running waters. Outdoors in the summer time. Then we
>>>>>>>>>>>> dance on ley lines, and make love inside of the pyramids. But why not
>>>>>>>>>>>> get all wrapped up in lace and silks. Dance with them in the wind, and
>>>>>>>>>>>> toss your naked body up into the air with silk sheets like you were
>>>>>>>>>>>> being juggled on a trampoline. Tie you up with ropes? Mm, only if you
>>>>>>>>>>>> make me.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> Does it count? How about indulging in it in my imagination? How about
>>>>>>>>>>> fantasizing about something someone else wrote directly to me and for
>>>>>>>>>>> me. What's that called?
>>>>>>>>>>> Here I will give you my fantasy that was written for me, the first one.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> first I would like to tell you what I would
>>>>>>>>>>>>> like to do to you before I continue. I would like to take you off the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> internet, put you in my dirty laundry basket, take you over to the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> laundry room, and wash you!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> submissives often are given such tasks, atlanta. providing personal
>>>>>>>>>>>> care and service to a dominant can be very rewarding. did you do such
>>>>>>>>>>>> loving things for your former husband? do the many men who desire you
>>>>>>>>>>>> ask you if you would enjoy bathing them?
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> And where is your mate?
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> how thoughtful of you to ask about her. your interpersonal skills are
>>>>>>>>>>>> improving. she's sitting cross-legged at my feet as i type this,
>>>>>>>>>>>> atlanta. she's quite naked except for the handcuffs that keep her
>>>>>>>>>>>> hands behind her back and a nice black-*rubber* O-ring gag, which keeps
>>>>>>>>>>>> her mouth wide open. she's very appealing when she's naked and
>>>>>>>>>>>> powerless like this. she's also rather uncomfortable as well, since i
>>>>>>>>>>>> couldn't resist using a short piece of chain hanging from the ceiling
>>>>>>>>>>>> to pull her ams upward a couple of feet. this would normally force her
>>>>>>>>>>>> to bend forward at the waist, making it very difficult to see her
>>>>>>>>>>>> lovely, open mouth and her beseeching blue eyes, so i looped a piece of
>>>>>>>>>>>> rope around her waist and ran it between her labia, quite snugly, and
>>>>>>>>>>>> tied it off to her hair. she has spent the last couple of hours
>>>>>>>>>>>> seesawing up and down charmingly. when she bends forward to take the
>>>>>>>>>>>> strain off her shoulders, the rope tightens even more on her poor
>>>>>>>>>>>> labia. and when she tries to straighten her back a bit to relieve the
>>>>>>>>>>>> labial pressure, her shoulders must take the additional punishment.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>> all in all, she makes a very fetching sight. can you see her in your
>>>>>>>>>>>> imagination, atlanta? isn't she pretty, cuffed and gagged, bending and
>>>>>>>>>>>> straightening every few moments, occasionally making small moans and
>>>>>>>>>>>> grunts. would you like to be in her place for a little while? i think
>>>>>>>>>>>> you would, no matter how much you protest such ideas. i think you'll
>>>>>>>>>>>> see yourself there for the next few days, in fact. don't think about
>>>>>>>>>>>> the pink elephants, dear.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> Who can wear you
>>>>>>>>>>>>> with out a mate?
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> but atlanta, it is *you* who is without a mate, remember? my little
>>>>>>>>>>>> sub is *my* mate, and in a little bit i shall be "wearing" her on my
>>>>>>>>>>>> big, steel-hard spear. and wearing her out as well, if past experience
>>>>>>>>>>>> is a predictor of future performance.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> That sounds weird to me. But you know what I would enjoy? A little
>>>>>>>>>> sensory deprivation sex. Check out this website:
>>>>>>>>>> http://www.mindalive.com ,
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>> Hello Corey,
>>>>>>>>> Ah, sensory deprivation. I want to be blindfolded when I have sex. My
>>>>>>>>> spatial intelligence is extremely acute, you can see from my artwork and
>>>>>>>>> photography, and I can not handle the intimacy of seeing my lover, or
>>>>>>>>> have not been able to because I have not been made love to by my soul
>>>>>>>>> mate yet although I have had a lot of "lovers". Perhaps with him it
>>>>>>>>> would be different. I want to be gagged too because I have stifled my
>>>>>>>>> own voice during sexual activity so I might as well just be gagged.
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>> I want very real physical sex with no other smells but sex itself.
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>> It's 11pm here, and time for me to go to bed as well. I went to bed at
>>>>>>>>>>>>> 2am last night. Sleep is important for health.
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Good night.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>> Hope that you had sweet lovely dreams, OK.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>>> I try not to dream. I have medicine for that.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> Hmm, lucid dreaming can evolve into things much deeper than sleep.
>>>>>>>>>> Higher states of being, and desire. :)
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>> Right and I am suffering from C-PTSD so I take medication at night so I
>>>>>>>>> do not have nightmares.
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>>> It reminds me of a bondage dream I had not long ago. I dreamed that my
>>>>>>>>>> mother and father owned a huge mansion, and were young and in love. I
>>>>>>>>>> was only an infant, or maybe a small child. And my father was
>>>>>>>>>> frustrated with my mother because she owned a giant clock that hung up
>>>>>>>>>> above the stair case. And with this clock she scheduled his life, and
>>>>>>>>>> felt entitled to schedule everyone elses.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> She was very dominant about the clock. Everything ran around her
>>>>>>>>>> schedule! And the clock struck midnight, so she told me I had to go to
>>>>>>>>>> bed. And then she put me in a large oval flotation tank, made out of
>>>>>>>>>> crystal. That was my bed, it was like a giant Egg. So in my dream I
>>>>>>>>>> dreamed that I slept, and it was a dream within a dream.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> I dreamed this dream throughout the night, and it was a dream that
>>>>>>>>>> seemed perfectly sane. Because in reality that was all I was really
>>>>>>>>>> doing was sleeping in my bed. But a few minuets before I woke up, a
>>>>>>>>>> door opened inside of the egg. And I walked outside into a garden. It
>>>>>>>>>> was morning and my mother told me it was time to wake up. And not long
>>>>>>>>>> after I actually did woke up.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> But before I woke up, I learned the reason my mother scheduled her life
>>>>>>>>>> around the clock, was so that she could lead a seperate life with other
>>>>>>>>>> men and go dancing and go to parties. And that was what my father was
>>>>>>>>>> so woried about. But in the dream they made peace, and once I woke up
>>>>>>>>>> in real life the illusion on bondage faded into a peaceful memory of
>>>>>>>>>> knowing I was at least on time. And I woke up at 9:00AM on the dot
>>>>>>>>>> that day, without even setting my alarm clock.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> Dreams are fun, I love them.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>> Awesome dream.
>>>>>>>>> Well in relation to that scene I posted, I had a dream that a man threw
>>>>>>>>> his mantle over me and I was sitting at his feet, much like that scene
>>>>>>>>> truly clooful wrote to me. I just realized the connection today. I do
>>>>>>>>> not know the connection that truly clooful has with me, but it seems to
>>>>>>>>> be very psychic, in fact, it is possible we have a telepathic
>>>>>>>>> connection. Very possible. I would like to experience what truly clooful
>>>>>>>>> wrote to me, with him, and my desire is illogical. And logic is my
>>>>>>>>> weakness. I am helpless and powerless over my illogical infatuation.
>>>>>>>>> I would like to draw my dream for my self, and then draw myself in the
>>>>>>>>> place of truly clooful's sub. I do not have blue eyes. I have hazel eyes
>>>>>>>>> that look like redwood trees.
>>>>>>>>> So now you see what my sexual desire is. And that is just the first
>>>>>>>>> scene he wrote to me. There are more.
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>
>>>>>>

>>>>

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