> On Sep 30, 10:16 am, CoreyWhite gmail.com> wrote:

>> On Sep 29, 3:21 pm, ritter_...@yahoo.com wrote:
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>>> On Sep 29, 12:08 pm, CoreyWhite gmail.com> wrote:

>>>> Suicide has become a happy thought for me now. All the fear and worry
>>>> I've had is just vanishing. I guess I'm kind of giving up, in a way.
>>>> I feel so much better than I have in the past. I'm over my hangover,
>>>> got a new haircut, and am getting good sleep. I'm still in good shape
>>>> these days, from all the nutritional suppliments I've been taking at
>>>> the GNC. Protien, Amino Acids, Vitamins. They all helped me get the
>>>> energy I needed to get back into shape at the gym. I've even found a
>>>> new pill that helps me get better sleep at night, they have it at the
>>>> GNC. Melatonin, and certain other herbs all help. I'm actually
>>>> growing taller now, and I'm 24. The better you sleep at night, the
>>>> more growth hormone you produce.
>>>> The latest thing I'm doing though, is dehumidifying the air in my
>>>> home. I bought a dehumidifier & an air purifier. They work
>>>> together, and my house has a really good vibe now. It sucked all of
>>>> the evil spirits out of the air. I would recommend you try it in your
>>>> home. The dehumidifier sucks 25 pints of water out of the air every
>>>> day that would make you sick if you drank it, so I don't see why you
>>>> would want to breath it either. The airpurifier filters smoke and
>>>> particles out of the air too, and it does a good job of it. Not as
>>>> good as the dehumidifier.
>>>> Anyway, I've been thinking about suicide. Magick and fantasy are
>>>> great, or even religion. They just don't do me a lot of good really.
>>>> I can't survive on magick. I've thought a lot about what I'm going
>>>> to do once I don't have a place to live anymore. Murder just doesn't
>>>> make any sense to me. It is almost like that's what the government
>>>> wants us to do. Doesn't it make more sense just to kill yourself?

>>> Hi Corey,
>>> Since the government punishes murderers severely, I'd say this is not
>>> what the government wants you to do.
>>> I'm not sure how murder would solve your living situation problem
>>> anyway.
>>> Why do you you think that murder or death are your only alternatives
>>> to your problems?
>>> I'm twice your age and I can tell you that there will be many ups and
>>> downs in your life.
>>> The fact that you are taking care of yourself, dehumidifying your
>>> home, writing this post etc. indicates you aren't quite ready to crawl
>>> into a hole and wither away.
>>> But I don't discount your stated intentions.
>>> I was quite surprised and shocked to find out that a man on another
>>> newsgroup killed himself after losing his home to forclosure.
>>> Lonliness, depresson and despair can be overwhelmingly powerful at
>>> times.
>>> I suggest that you continue to reach out to others as you have done
>>> here.
>>> Fantasy puts you in search of something that removes you from your
>>> present condition.
>>> I suggest you deal with what is right NOW. The future will come. It
>>> always does.
>>> And you may be surprised that when it does, it isn't nearly as bad as
>>> you have imagined.
>>> Feel free to contact me by email if you want to talk privately.
>>> Good luck and stick with it.

>>>> My plan is to go out into the woods & crawl into a cave, without food
>>>> or water, and just wait to die. That way my spirit remembers. Its
>>>> too easy to get a noose, or a gun & kill yourself. In the next life,
>>>> if I'm still unhappy or miserable, I'm hoping I remember how easy it
>>>> is to just lie down and starve yourself to death. It is fairly
>>>> peacefull. I know I've gone through a lot worse in my life than
>>>> slowly falling unconscious from hunger or thirst.
>>>> They shouldn't make so much fun of suicide cult leaders. Not in a day
>>>> & age when you have a higher chance of becoming a murderor yourself
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>> It isn't really suicide if they find my corpse in a cave, after its
>> been missing for months. Hard to say how I died. Maybe its not the
>> best way to go about doing it either. I'm taking out a Life Insurance
>> Policy first, and then I'm just going to start living like a beast and
>> avoiding the doctor. If I get the flu & don't see a specialist, I'll
>> probably die anyway, and my family can cash in on the million dollar
>> life insurance. Because of the new government medicare bills, I'm
>> paying $400 out of my own pocket a month just to continue to take my
>> anti-psychotics. They aren't going to give me a free place to live,
>> anyway. I can't even find a job.- Hide quoted text -
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> Corey
> Suicide and your life is your own to decide. The reasons you do it
> for is what makes the difference. So far, nothing in your life is not
> fixable, somehow. Despair sucks but it is a state of mind that will
> fluxuate. The cost of your meds is unexcusable.
>
> Come help me figure out how to make my "My Space" page and my MSN
> space. I am able to talk you out of suicide, laugh you out of it...or
> have been known to be the reason why people want to commit it. I am
> the only good cause..heh.
>
> Come, take my hand ..I need your expertise. I cannot even get Youtube
> to sit right on half of these templates. I am bored. I need a friend.
> E-mail?