>Okay, so I'm sorry about the flood. I still have a question. Is
>anyone here interested in self-help magic? This is my only real
>interest in magick. I like fluffy white magick, and am especially
>fond of magic tricks. Trouble is it seems, I have only been able to
>make a little bit of progress with white magick. I'm not concerned
>with saving the world, just with finding a good avenue for happiness
>in life! On some level I find enjoyment in every day, but I'm worried
>about the future. I don't have a job, haven't been able to find one,
>and I still love at home. I'm 24. This past year for me has mostly
>been about getting good exercise, and I've been working out. I've
>managed to find some inner peace, and got on a strict schedule of
>waking up bright and early. I even started horse back lessons.
>
>Things were going great, until I got a girlfriend and she dumped me
>when I went to the David Copperfield show. The show was incredible,
>but after the show my heart was broken, and the guy I was working for
>as an assistant suddenly died very unexpectedly. Then the depression
>sunk in, and I was just stuck on these groups. That was just last
>month, and I haven't been driving sense then. I got into a little car
>accident backing out of my girlfriends drive way.. And that's when I
>saw the future. I could see car accidents coming, and wrote a post
>about it on the groups. A few posts if I remember. All the negative
>energy accumulated on my birthday, and I was just praying everything
>would go okay. But that was the day of the bridge collapse. A
>strange coincidence.
>
>I've been having these vivid dreams too, ever since the Copperfield
>Show & the split up with my girlfriend. After the split up I didn't
>get out of bed for 3 days, and was only trying to go back to sleep &
>go to that magical place David Copperfield takes you to. Then the
>lucid dreams started after that.. I even had a very vivid one, that
>happened like a text book case of astral projection.
>
>I was just lying in bed, and then all of a sudden I was falling, and I
>entered a strange new world. I didn't have complete control, but I
>felt like I was really somewhere else. I was in an underground
>tunnel, something like that. I actually thought I had escaped from
>the real world, and had made it to a new plane of existence. It
>wasn't long before that fantasy faded though, with the dream. But
>when I woke up I knew we were in for some severe weather. I could see
>an earthquake coming and new we were going to have a mine collapse.
>There were several earthquakes too. Perhaps even triggered by the
>initial bridge collapse.
>
>Since then we've just been dealing with this hot, and rainy weather.
>My life has felt like a kind of drag, with the weather and the college
>closing. I was running low on my medication too, and went into a
>depressive fit, where I was hurting myself.. I have some scars on my
>hands from that now.
>
>I started taking the meds again as prescribed, and although I'm not on
>my exercise program I'm taking suppliments that help with that. They
>are called Amino Acids, which are just a naturally produced ingredient
>in protien. They work wonders for my health, and help me get to sleep
>at night really early, wake up early. And make me feel HAPPY!
>Pretty much all day long I'm feeling happy. Maybe a little silly
>though, which is why I flooded the groups. I can't imagine why people
>report me as being abusive and my ISP disconnects the service. We
>have lost power & cable 3 times this week, and my ISP talks to me like
>I'm some kind of criminal.
>
>I don't pirate, or do anything with the computer, other than research
>and write posts. I got to do something with my time. Tomorrow I'm
>going to try watching TV. I've just started watching Dayton's CW, and
>I love the network. It is all my mom watches. It is so hard to find
>good TV like we used to have growing up.. They completely took away
>sit calms and the shows you can only seem to find now on CW from the
>networks.
>
>I just wanted to ask if anyone could pray for me, and help me cast a
>spell for positive magick? Because I haven't been able to get much
>good to happen.. I have all of this guilt from the bridge collapse on
>my birthday.
>