On Aug 25, 5:31 am, CoreyWhite
gmail.com> wrote:> Okay, so I'm sorry about the flood. I still have a question. Is
> anyone here interested in self-help magic? This is my only real
> interest in magick. I like fluffy white magick, and am especially
> fond of magic tricks. Trouble is it seems, I have only been able to
> make a little bit of progress with white magick. I'm not concerned
> with saving the world, just with finding a good avenue for happiness
> in life! On some level I find enjoyment in every day, but I'm worried
> about the future. I don't have a job, haven't been able to find one,
> and I still love at home. I'm 24. This past year for me has mostly
> been about getting good exercise, and I've been working out. I've
> managed to find some inner peace, and got on a strict schedule of
> waking up bright and early. I even started horse back lessons.
>
> Things were going great, until I got a girlfriend and she dumped me
> when I went to the David Copperfield show. The show was incredible,
> but after the show my heart was broken, and the guy I was working for
> as an assistant suddenly died very unexpectedly. Then the depression
> sunk in, and I was just stuck on these groups. That was just last
> month, and I haven't been driving sense then. I got into a little car
> accident backing out of my girlfriends drive way.. And that's when I
> saw the future. I could see car accidents coming, and wrote a post
> about it on the groups. A few posts if I remember. All the negative
> energy accumulated on my birthday, and I was just praying everything
> would go okay. But that was the day of the bridge collapse. A
> strange coincidence.
>
> I've been having these vivid dreams too, ever since the Copperfield
> Show & the split up with my girlfriend. After the split up I didn't
> get out of bed for 3 days, and was only trying to go back to sleep &
> go to that magical place David Copperfield takes you to. Then the
> lucid dreams started after that.. I even had a very vivid one, that
> happened like a text book case of astral projection.
>
> I was just lying in bed, and then all of a sudden I was falling, and I
> entered a strange new world. I didn't have complete control, but I
> felt like I was really somewhere else. I was in an underground
> tunnel, something like that. I actually thought I had escaped from
> the real world, and had made it to a new plane of existence. It
> wasn't long before that fantasy faded though, with the dream. But
> when I woke up I knew we were in for some severe weather. I could see
> an earthquake coming and new we were going to have a mine collapse.
> There were several earthquakes too. Perhaps even triggered by the
> initial bridge collapse.
>
> Since then we've just been dealing with this hot, and rainy weather.
> My life has felt like a kind of drag, with the weather and the college
> closing. I was running low on my medication too, and went into a
> depressive fit, where I was hurting myself.. I have some scars on my
> hands from that now.
Corey, you are getting cause and effect mixed up. This is only one
example. You first said your medication was causing bad reactions, and
then said you had cut back on the dosage before the reactions started.
There are usually withdrawal symptoms when people cut down on this
type of medication.
So you need to look at what happened first, and consider that what
followed might have been a consequence.
Likewise, you were told that cross-posting to so many groups on
irrelevant subjects was bad manners. You even said at one point that
you would cut it out. Now you are carrying on about flooding all the
newsgroups out of revenge, which is worse manners. What you say is not
consistent from one post to the next.
I hope you can get this sorted out and move forward in life, but it
may take some professional help.
>
> I started taking the meds again as prescribed, and although I'm not on
> my exercise program I'm taking suppliments that help with that. They
> are called Amino Acids, which are just a naturally produced ingredient
> in protien. They work wonders for my health, and help me get to sleep
> at night really early, wake up early. And make me feel HAPPY!
> Pretty much all day long I'm feeling happy. Maybe a little silly
> though, which is why I flooded the groups. I can't imagine why people
> report me as being abusive and my ISP disconnects the service. We
> have lost power & cable 3 times this week, and my ISP talks to me like
> I'm some kind of criminal.
>
> I don't pirate, or do anything with the computer, other than research
> and write posts. I got to do something with my time. Tomorrow I'm
> going to try watching TV. I've just started watching Dayton's CW, and
> I love the network. It is all my mom watches. It is so hard to find
> good TV like we used to have growing up.. They completely took away
> sit calms and the shows you can only seem to find now on CW from the
> networks.
>
> I just wanted to ask if anyone could pray for me, and help me cast a
> spell for positive magick? Because I haven't been able to get much
> good to happen.. I have all of this guilt from the bridge collapse on
> my birthday.
