Okay, so I'm sorry about the flood. I still have a question. Is
anyone here interested in self-help magic? This is my only real
interest in magick. I like fluffy white magick, and am especially
fond of magic tricks. Trouble is it seems, I have only been able to
make a little bit of progress with white magick. I'm not concerned
with saving the world, just with finding a good avenue for happiness
in life! On some level I find enjoyment in every day, but I'm worried
about the future. I don't have a job, haven't been able to find one,
and I still love at home. I'm 24. This past year for me has mostly
been about getting good exercise, and I've been working out. I've
managed to find some inner peace, and got on a strict schedule of
waking up bright and early. I even started horse back lessons.

Things were going great, until I got a girlfriend and she dumped me
when I went to the David Copperfield show. The show was incredible,
but after the show my heart was broken, and the guy I was working for
as an assistant suddenly died very unexpectedly. Then the depression
sunk in, and I was just stuck on these groups. That was just last
month, and I haven't been driving sense then. I got into a little car
accident backing out of my girlfriends drive way.. And that's when I
saw the future. I could see car accidents coming, and wrote a post
about it on the groups. A few posts if I remember. All the negative
energy accumulated on my birthday, and I was just praying everything
would go okay. But that was the day of the bridge collapse. A
strange coincidence.

I've been having these vivid dreams too, ever since the Copperfield
Show & the split up with my girlfriend. After the split up I didn't
get out of bed for 3 days, and was only trying to go back to sleep &
go to that magical place David Copperfield takes you to. Then the
lucid dreams started after that.. I even had a very vivid one, that
happened like a text book case of astral projection.

I was just lying in bed, and then all of a sudden I was falling, and I
entered a strange new world. I didn't have complete control, but I
felt like I was really somewhere else. I was in an underground
tunnel, something like that. I actually thought I had escaped from
the real world, and had made it to a new plane of existence. It
wasn't long before that fantasy faded though, with the dream. But
when I woke up I knew we were in for some severe weather. I could see
an earthquake coming and new we were going to have a mine collapse.
There were several earthquakes too. Perhaps even triggered by the
initial bridge collapse.

Since then we've just been dealing with this hot, and rainy weather.
My life has felt like a kind of drag, with the weather and the college
closing. I was running low on my medication too, and went into a
depressive fit, where I was hurting myself.. I have some scars on my
hands from that now.

I started taking the meds again as prescribed, and although I'm not on
my exercise program I'm taking suppliments that help with that. They
are called Amino Acids, which are just a naturally produced ingredient
in protien. They work wonders for my health, and help me get to sleep
at night really early, wake up early. And make me feel HAPPY!
Pretty much all day long I'm feeling happy. Maybe a little silly
though, which is why I flooded the groups. I can't imagine why people
report me as being abusive and my ISP disconnects the service. We
have lost power & cable 3 times this week, and my ISP talks to me like
I'm some kind of criminal.

I don't pirate, or do anything with the computer, other than research
and write posts. I got to do something with my time. Tomorrow I'm
going to try watching TV. I've just started watching Dayton's CW, and
I love the network. It is all my mom watches. It is so hard to find
good TV like we used to have growing up.. They completely took away
sit calms and the shows you can only seem to find now on CW from the
networks.

I just wanted to ask if anyone could pray for me, and help me cast a
spell for positive magick? Because I haven't been able to get much
good to happen.. I have all of this guilt from the bridge collapse on
my birthday.