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>> mila wrote:

>>> intense semi-intellectual semi-therapeutic semi-egoicslime
>>> semi-OCDconstruction focus upon myself.
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>>> natural result of self breakdown, keeps little me from slipping
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>> take a break.
>> rest
>> not just you, all of your other personalities too!!!
>> and you've probably got parallel dimensions happening
>> so you gotta rest once for each parallel timeline too.

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> i invented a time device for every dimension, which keeps reality time
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> i also made a morphing tardis like "dr who machine", with connections
> to the Mothers to transport me between dimensions.
> the last place i turned up in was a painting of a friends dads, then i
> appeared outside the painting... and got savaged by a tribe of savages
> as i rushed into the tardis which i summoned with The other Device i
> invented, a swiss army wand.
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>> and you probably think you're God, so you're gonna have to rest on
>> the seventh day of each week
>> and you probably think the CIA is watching you, so i think its time
>> to quit the KGB. Or at least go on vacation.
>> of course, if its space aliens then you're justified to stress out
>> cause them space aliens got ufos and robots and all that so they can
>> time travel and stuff like that. Can't do nothing about the space
>> aliens
>> all that other stuff though, is just your imagination scaring you
>> although imaginary space aliens might present some degree of
>> difficulty
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>>> into pieces.
>>> also a death-parade presentation.
>>> the relief of my death and reposession by grace.
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>>> the intense attention to self and at the same time distance is a
>>> symptom of a large %% of genXY, peeking beyond ourselves only to
>>> examine our genXY comrades and likemind hero personas not unlike
>>> the hippies did.
>>> this resulted from the breakdown of ww2 and the 60's and the 60's
>>> parents.
>>> in which old structures were exposed and dismissed and we ended up
>>> being brought up without a clear Way by retired revolutionaries and
>>> hypocrites without a clue how to play or who to be.
>>> the world was a shit hole before and now we know, disregard the old
>>> value systems and games and haven't found much of any replacement
>>> or way or newself, so we're focused upon it with anxiety.
>>>
>>> IVP (Inner Voice Practice-Processing) appeals to this tendency
>>> aswell as my desire to control your minds.
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>>> they CAN'T (this is what i Can't understand) understand how much
>>> they mean to me. i felt every twitch of meani-ness and blankness
>>> of concern.
>>>
>>> in close relationships my sensitivity is attached to
>>> selfconsciousness which to any high sensitive in this reality would
>>> mean a victimised sense of self and desire to isolate or escape
>>> somewhere without these love- imperfect beings driving us to
>>> insanityism and forcing us to fight fight with fight with self
>>> disgust and weak control over these sharp and fiery feelings
>>> everyone else appears to be born with the gift of wielding
>>> naturally. but as some self assertion is satisfied to apoint that a
>>> sensitive neither feels victimised nor feels it to be a necessary
>>> rule to defend oneself the sensitivity may finally turn away from
>>> self defense and fear and simply feel all of the people touching
>>> it. there is a sense of motherly care of unconditional love
>>> growing.
>>>
>>> you have to be careful of sensitives becoming cruel because when
>>> they are they're worse than a bitch...
>>>
>>> I like to feel you twist.
>>> I like to know you bleed.
>>> tell me how it hurts.
>>> feed my bitter seeds.
>>>
>>> so as genXY grows older into controlling this world I believe there
>>> is this fiery defense and warefare aspect that will still come out
>>> on a larger scale than an upset highschool student is capable.
>>> and mixed with this is the possibility of deep cruelty if we don't
>>> continue to grow beyond ourself, aswell as stupid insensitives
>>> huffing themselves up with us dragging it down (but they are being
>>> turned to the purpose).
>>>
>>> an outburst is Very necessary.
>>>
>>> eventually is this sensitivity growing into an awareness of
>>> everyone with interest and "motherly compassion" feelings.
>>>
>>> KingKong is the generally positive rage reaction to this
>>> self-snagged sensitivity to others leading to a hopefully
>>> controlled assertion. CobraMan is this intellectualized cruelty and
>>> poison transformation of the sensitive self given up to a stronger
>>> evil capable of handling things better than he can.
>>> cobraman is the aspect of myself i fear.
>>> the part i don't trust and reason i'm afraid of practicing magick
>>> or even unintended leakage of this venom.
>>> as my normal self this energy presence has me jumping about like a
>>> monkey i n a snake pit and my protectivity mechanisms go nuts
>>> trying to shield those i love. in fact ive only started consciously
>>> talking about this issue to myself because im so afraid of people
>>> being hurt that i don't want words to strengthen the issue, but
>>> it's way too late for that.
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>>> if any force is pure evil this is it.
>>> the only compassion possible for it is knowing the alchemy it
>>> resulted from (the history of the individual) and perhaps the
>>> "evil" part we had to play in its making.
>>> only someone who was very sensitive and aware is capable of such a
>>> depth of fucking evil, and only one who has experienced it upon
>>> themselves.
>>> but in that person driven by that force all pussy identification
>>> with helpless hurting and SOSing is annihilated as self assertion
>>> turns to revenge turns to the blood lust of children who like to
>>> kill.
>>>
>>> the faces of the child. (we will always be children)
>>>
>>> KingKong is the rage of the picked on illiterate Hunchback poet in
>>> drag. lol
>>> the big brother who has been there too, and fights knowing only
>>> that he has a right to be who he is until deeper wisdom sets in.
>>>
>>> intellectually conscious cruelty. = lack of love.
>>>
>>> CobraMan cannot exist as a loved being.
>>> opposition reinforces his existence.
>>> he doesn't want love he wants frightened respect and disgust.
>>> he eclipses the needy child and despises its revealing by stupid
>>> softhearts who all turn on him, all with little self awareness (he
>>> spits).
>>> but cobraman is an intense pathalogical split off from KingKongs
>>> "outbursts".
>>>
>>> i'm not liddle!
>>>
>>> hitler was a cobraman.
>>> his misconception of the NewMan as based on this slip. but it's a
>>> misconception that may yet make itself true.
>>>
>>> 'The new man is living amongst us now! He is here!' exclaimed
>>> Hitler, triumphantly. 'Isn't that enough for you? I will tell you
>>> a secret. I have seen the new man. He is intrepid and cruel. I
>>> was afraid of him.'

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