> On 2 Sep, 18:53, mika gmail.com> wrote:

>> On Sep 2, 3:09 am, Executive Function  wrote:
>>

>>>   I didn't like the way you
>>> automatically assumed I must have misinterpreted the threat though (I
>>> didn't).  You could have asked for clarification about that first.

>>
>> Even if you didn't misinterpret the threat, it is irrelevant.  You
>> have two choices:  live your own life as you choose according to your
>> own nature, or live a life based on other peoples' desires and
>> expectations.
>>
>> Every time you are provided with a suggested course of action to deal
>> with your shit, you come up with some excuse why you can't take that
>> action.  This claim that people are out to get you, whether accurate
>> or fantasy, is just another attempt to avoid facing and dealing with
>> the actual practical work you need to do (that is, you would need to
>> do if you actually wanted to address the problems you have been asking
>> for advice about here).

>
> If we would/were to compare ourselves as akin to musicians when we
> work together, then I would be the drummer to your violin Mika. I can
> look after the beat but outside of the gig I need a bit of help. It's
> a trade off.
>
> Yesterday I was in a hotel, in complete meltdown, and asked my ex to
> take me to the nearest psychiatric place because looking at myself
> from the third person I knew that a fuse or two was not working
> upstairs, and willing yourself to die for a few hours whilst propped
> up against the corner in fetal position was a definate no no.
>
> If I could simply do what I want without overload or meltdown then I
> would have much more options practically - but as I have to work with
> what I've got (including brain damage from birth because our genetics
> don't react kindly to drugs and birth trauma) then no matter how
> intellegent I seem to be ordinarily then I have to give over my
> independance and decision making sometimes. And this is very scarey -
> and all I want in such times is to feel safe, because when I am like
> this there is so much going on up top that I am very
> ssssssslllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
>
> To be a practical aspie - I have to take this shit into account. If
> people would give me advice while taking this into account like I have
> to - I might get much better advice i think.
>
> I've met a lot of aspies that stay with thier parents and never move
> out of thier own personal comfort zone wey beyond the norm, and others
> who just put up with the overload and the meltdowns and try and 'go
> for it', whatever 'it' is. I really would like some good advice from
> this forum, and occaisionally I've got it. You, Tom, Erwin, and
> (*very* appropriately at the time, (he knew it, and you didn't))
> Archangel, have all helped me at one time or another, and I truely
> appreciate that as the years come and go.
>
> My relationships with people, whether online or off are very important
> to me, whether I show that or not, and more often I do not. Sometimes
> I have all the emotional intelligent response of a teaspoon
> unfortunately.