> On Wed, 13 Aug 2008 00:34:56 -0500, Cannabidraake
> wrote:
>

>>I like being alone, but sometimes there are things I want to talk
>>about with others. Not personal things, but cosmic things. I want to
>>find people with huge minds that think huge ideas. I don't like to
>>sit around and talk about someone's job, though someone's personal
>>past might be interesting. I like hearing stories about people's
>>pasts, but I don't care as much about hearing someone talk about
>>someone else's personal life. I don't know that person and what they
>>do in their life doesn't interest me.
>>
>>So I thought about going to a bar or something to just sit around and
>>drink a beer...maybe look at the crowd and see if anybody looks like
>>an ancient soul, but I haven't brought myself to do that.
>>
>>Whenever I get in the mood to talk to someone, but then look around
>>and realize I have no friends, I dig a deeper hole in my mind and
>>crawl into it. That sounds darker than it really is. What this
>>actually feels like is an evaporation of the need to talk to someone.
>>This is replaced with an even greater sense of isolation from the
>>world and from everyone else's way of thinking, but this also comes
>>with a sense of an inner quest with outer consequences. It's like
>>closing yourself off from everyone else's thought-influence so you can
>>really know yourself. So I have characters in my mind who I talk to,
>>play really intense mental games with, and we just imagine things
>>together, basically. In this interaction, I learn about myself and
>>who I really am, instead of who I have learned to be as a student of
>>Earth's ways.

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> MK