> A Gay Man and Boy Lover Speaks Out
> Jamie Baillie
> 2008 NAMBLA Spokesman
> 2008 NAMBLA Activist of the Month (May)
http://www.nambla.org
>
> A Gay Man and Boy Lover Speaks Out
>
> Dear Friends,
>
> I am a boy-lover and a 39-year-old gay man. I had a wonderful affair
> with a 37-year-old man when I was only 10 years old. It was the most
> pure, clean, and honest relationship I've ever had in my life. I knew
> of my attraction for men and other boys when I was eight years old.
>
> At the age of 10, a very good looking 37-year-old man, a friend of my
> family who I very much looked up to, made his approach on me. I guess
> I had a lot to do with it because I wanted it. We had a very
> wonderful, passionate, heated affair, but it only lasted eight
> months. I fell deeply in love with this man, and through my love for
> him I matured a lot spiritually as well as sexually. We did
> everything that two loving people could do with each other.
>
> Unfortunately this man who I loved so much had to walk away from my
> life because my parents found out about our close relationship through
> another friend of mine (a peer) to whom I had entrusted my secret. My
> man friend was scared and decided to move to another state. No
> charges were ever pressed against him because I never admitted making
> love with him.
>
> It's hard to believe that this society, with its deep research on
> modern psychology and space age technology, has not grown out of this
> sexual taboo. They probably don't want to face the real true facts of
> intergenerational relationships and how harmless they really are.
>
> Society seems concerned about controlling and monitoring everything a
> minor does. It is inconceivable that such relationships are punished
> with such long jail sentences. People commit murder and their jail
> terms are less.
>
> I could have had a much healthier and lasting relationship when I was
> a boy if it wasn't because of the way society is. They fucked up the
> nice relationship I was having, and that's no good! Even though I
> was, like they say now, "molested at 10," I did not grow up to be a
> child molester! That's bullshit! Boy love is a natural thing and
> boys naturally want to make love to adult gay men.
>
> I'm sorry if I seem enraged about this issue, but I still hold so
> much frustration inside because I was never given a chance to be who I
> wanted to be when I was 10 years old. I was told it was wrong to love
> a man, that I was too young, and that this man was evil.
>
> Of course, I never thought of him as an evil person. I thought he was
> great! I knew what I wanted, but my parents told me I was just a
> child and I shouldn't be thinking about sex.
>
> You see, my adult gay life has been tough. It's mostly sexual, and
> everything floats around "looks" and "sex," but if I look back to that
> first relationship, I found support, caring, spirituality, and
> commitment, as well as intensity and purity. All of that is very
> difficult to achieve these days; the adult gay scene seems to revolve
> around lust and sex.
>
> How can gay people attack, judge, and condemn boy-lovers if we were
> once under the same oppression as they are today? Do we really want
> to become as closed-minded as those who refuse to let us gay people
> share a space in society? Have any of us taken the time to examine
> closely what man/boy love is all about? How can we then become part
> of the narrow-minded team that we once fought, and still fight,
> against? How could we ever win the battle of gay rights if we are
> shooting with the same weapons that were (and are) used against us?
> We have forgotten that sex is a vehicle of communication through which
> there can be the maximum expression of love.
>
> The fact of the matter is, most gay men are boy lovers in private even
> if they put on another face in public. I have the courage to stand up
> and be counted as a proud boy lover who has had multiple partners as
> young as eight years old. The time has come for the rest of you to
> stand with me in this plea for reason. Love is beauty and the love
> between a man and a boy is a beautiful thing especially when expressed
> as love making.
>
> Sincerely yours,
> Jamie Baillie
>
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>
> Jamie Baillie
> 2008 NAMBLA Spokesman
> 2008 NAMBLA Activist of the Month (May)
http://www.nambla.org
>
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> "The best sex I ever had was with a nine year old boy named Timmy"
> Jamie Baillie
>
> "Consumption of a young boy's feces is better than Viagra"
> Jamie Baillie
